Have you ever felt vulnerable in a situation wherein a normal day you would take the bull by the horns?
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I wasn't going to post about this day anymore after the way I felt, I mean I did my part and shared on stories so I did not have to.
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But I wanted to let you know you are not alone, and we can`t diminish other`s people pain.
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This day was absolutely terrible, I was already feeling so bad.
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I've had the most distressing weekend due to much work and too little resting because everything was going wrong and I couldn't even have a relaxing shower.
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And then a rodent showed up at my place and I have a phobia to rodents, I can't even think straight, and it was added to my plate making me lose my sleep completely.
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But I had Work to Do! I am content creator, if a brand, a designer invites me to a place and I agree to go I will full fill my part and share it with my followers.
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Well, I got invited to watch a very nice runway show from @sheguanghu a designer that I absolutely love!!! and @sheguanghu was the only reason I didn`t leave that place.
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Well after had melted humiliated in front of strangers because of a rat, mouse, mice or whatever they want to call it, I went home with the exterminator and was able to get ready to my @sheguanghu runway show.
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I was even excited because I was going to finally take my mind off the rodent.
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I arrived 20 minutes earlier so I could get settled for the show and organize Brenda, as USUAL, SHE WENT WITH ME, she loves runways shows more than I do, to be honest!!!!
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Well arriving at Pier 59 for the @sheguanghu show, I stayed in line for more or less 10 minutes, which was ok.
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But it was time enough for everybody to realize I had a baby in a stroller with me.
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I was finally my turn to enter and get a seat (Brenda was sleeping in the stroller), the lady said I could not enter with the kid!!!
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First, she said the kid wasn't allowed in the show (but I saw a kid going in),
after and say I did not ask to go, I got invited to, and I had come from way far and why she waited so long to tell me if I was under her sight for over 10 minutes with the stroller???
She told me to wait until she put everybody seated and she would `try` to help me.
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At this time I was already holding on my tears, I was feeling like those people who are plus one on parties where the birthday person doesn't want you there.
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I started a live on my insta
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When she finally came to `help me`, she told me to LEAVE THE BABY OUTSIDE!!!!! with the security guards and go in.
I was like?! Can you repeat please (not believing what she had just said to me, maybe I misunderstood, got lost in translation)
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Then she repeated in loud and good sound: Ok, you can enter just leave the kid here with the security guards sleeping in the stroller.
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At this time I wanted just turn around and leave crying…
While I know this was not the worst day of my life (even though I can`t hold my tears writing it down), I had way worst things to deal with already in my life, this time was just too much and everything at once, and the fact that I was feeling so humiliated and fragile didn`t make me weak, less of a woman or anything like that.
The fact that was too much just made me human.
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And I thank God that I could hold myself together and do the job I was invited to do.
And I fell so sorry that in those days we still have people who think like this girl or organization (I am not sure was her fault) still put women apart because of their kid and do lousy work, yes because they invited me and all I was showing was my kid and I at shows, so they did not see it before send the invitation.
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Designers check the prs you hire to organize your events, it is not the first time something like this happens to me, first time and to everybody!!!! Last time they had the decency of letting me know prior to the show.
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Runway shows are louddddddd baby talk can not be heard from anybody.
That was it guys, I hope this helps some people, and don`t make anyone put you down or make you dimish yourself!!! You are worth!!! and you can always count on me.